frozen pavement stretching ahead,
snowbound curves and icy ditches,
flashing past my windshield.
my view is constrained by
the power of my headlights;
highbeams, lowbeams, eyes open wide.
there off to the side – shadows dance,
prance from snowy pines to yellow lines…
I brake hard and feel everything slide.
slow-motion time-stop wheels-lock glide
I think of the dishes unwashed in my sink
and the bigger messes I will leave undone…
she doe-eyed and startled stares at me.
she is as immobile as I am inside my car;
this interaction is heading to disaster…
surprising to both of us my car stops.
I swear I can hear her heart beating
just as loud as my own racing blood;
she spins, whirls, and dances away.
breathing deeply the sweet country air,
I realize I have been afraid my entire life
and living as if I could control it;
and the truth is I don’t control anything.
the world just happens without consent or blessing;
just the way it always has and always will.